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Selasa, 09 Februari 2016

Love ?

The world's most famous word. The world's most mentioned word. Love. How about the meaning of it? How many people can describe what love is? It might be interesting to describe and define love, the world's most metaphysical object. Something we usually not to give a damn about describing it, but just to feel it. Anyway, February is the month of love! Let's just to be frank about love to celebrate it!

Love makes us alive.

"I have always loved you, and you know that. Ever since I was fifteen years old, when we laid under the trees, learning and growing in love. I have tried to let you go and find someone that moves me more than you, but no one can beat the way you make me feel. Being around you lifts me up - not only do I feel fifteen again, but you make me feel like I couldn’t be anyone better but the person I am when I am with you."- Le Love

Yes, baby. Your love makes me alive, 200% more alive than before. Remember how we talk to each other about everything? There was a kind of relief there. To put my head over your chest, there was a fresh air I breathed. By just smiling and holding my hand, I was exceedingly happy to be right next to you. Hopes were flying free beyond our heads when we were so in love. We were so not care about what was ahead, busy making each other happy effortlessly.

"From the way you smile , to the way you look, you capture me unlike no other. From the first hello
Yeah, that's all it took and certainly we had each other. And I won't leave you. Always be true.
One plus one, two for life, over and over again.
So, don't ever think I need more.. I've got the one to live for. No one else will do, and
I'm telling you just put your heart in my hands. Promise it won't get broken , we'll never forget this moment.  It will stay brand new, 'Cause I'll love you over and over again." - Nathan Sykes



Love scares us.

As a ordinary human being, naturally we want to own something or someone we love entirely. Especially when it has given us enormous happiness, like ultimate level of happiness this tiny world could ever have. One huge consequences of loving someone, is we don't want to lose him/her. We scared of goodbye, of being left and alone. Selfish, indeed. Yet we can't deny nor run from it.The harder we love, the bigger we scare.

Yes honey. I'm scared. Scared to death of losing you even if it's just one minute. It grows bigger along with my feeling for you. And everyday I felt like I already lost you. It was undeniable. You kept on making me feel scared by going to another direction that we both hate. 

"When two souls fall in love, there is nothing else but the yearning to be close to the other. The presence that is felt through a hand held, a voice heard, or a smile seen. 
Souls do not have calendars or clocks, nor do they understand the notion of time or distance. They only know it feels right to be with another. This is the reason why you miss someone so much when they are not there- even if they are only in the very next room. Your soul only feels their absence- it doesn't realise the separation is temporary" - Lang Leav


"If this is my last night with you. Hold me like I'm more than just a friend. Give me a memory I can use, take me by the hand while we do what lovers do. It matters how this ends 'cause what if I never love again?
I don't need your honesty, it's already in your eyes. And I'm sure my eyes, they speak for me.
No one knows me like you do. And since you're the only one that matters. Tell me who do I run to?" - Adele

Love lies to us. 

I'm a hundred percent sure, there is a part of lying and faking something in order to love someone. First, people tend to lie to please many people whether the fact they don't matter at all. Second, we lie to ourselves about our feeling. How the decision we made not making us happy, but we lie in front of people out there. We cover our face with masks, until we can't differ which one is the real one. Some people tell lies to hurt others, some tell lies to please others.

"…two people, confused as shit as to where they should be and who they should love and none of this means a damn thing because it’s all lies!" - S.L. Jennings


"I loved him more than anything.  I still miss him every day.  What hurts the most is that the man I loved, and what I miss, was never real, it never even existed.  Which also makes it easier in some ways, there is no way back, nothing to mend, nothing in reality to miss, as there wasn't a moment when he wasn't lying.  But I don't get why, and it makes me scream inside.  Now I know that he in fact taunted me, tortured me, enjoyed his powerful and sadistic position, he would tell me I was mad when I questioned why so much did not make sense.  He never loved me. " - experienceproject.com

“who did I think we were.
who did I think
I could make you.

this is the oldest mistake,
to confuse wanting
with magic. silence is the undoing
of every spell, and we are experts
in the unsaid. even now, I forget
to put us in past tense. as if
the air in this city were the same.
as if love is anything like its speaking.”
Marty McConnell 
  
"You didn’t love her. You just didn’t want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was good for your ego. Or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn’t love her, because you don’t destroy the person that you love".- Callie Torres - ‘The Heart of the Matter’





Selasa, 14 Juli 2015

Akibat Percaya kepada Allah

Suatu siang di hari Jumat, saya pergi ke toko buku di Malang untuk membeli buku yang telah lama saya masukkan ke wishlist saya untuk minggu ini, yaitu buku Notes From Qatar oleh Muhammad Assad. Untuk yang penasaran siapa beliau, bisa intip profilenya di sini. Baru dua bab dari buku tersebut yang saya baca, saya sudah terhipnotis oleh kisah-kisah inspiratif Mas Assad. Mas Assad bercerita tentang keajaiban-keajaiban yang terjadi di dalam kehidupannya yang tidak lain karena kuasa Allah Sang Maha Baik. Dengan menganut prinsip 3P : Positive, Persistence, Pray; Muhammad Assad mampu menggugah hati kecil saya untuk ikut membagi keajaiban Allah yang terjadi di dalam kehidupan saya pribadi.
Ini loh bukunyaaa...
   
Pertama kali kenal sama Mas Assad dan nggak tahu kalau beliau penulis terkenal haha


Sejak kecil, saya selalu bermimpi untuk dapat pergi ke luar negeri. Hal ini karena pengaruh media televisi, buku-buku yang saya baca, lalu saya beranggapan sepertinya banyak cerita menarik di luar sana. Namun, dari tayangan tersebut selalu diperlihatkan bahwa hanya kaum yang berduit saja yang bisa jalan-jalan ke luar negeri. Hmmm.. Saya bahkan sempat bersumpah didalam hati bahwa saya akan mampu jalan-jalan ke luar negeri tanpa membebani orangtua. "Liat aja nanti kalau aku gede aku juga bisa seperti mereka" hehehe..

Beasiswa Exchange ke Praha
Alhamdulillah, Allah mengabulkan mimpi terbesar saya sejak kecil. Ketika itu dibuka pendaftaran beasiswa penuh untuk pertukaran pelajar ke beberapa negara seperti Meksiko, Mesir, Polandia, dan Ceko oleh Medical Students' Committe for International Affair (MSCIA) Universitas Brawijaya yang disponsori oleh HPEQ  DIKTI. Jujur, ketika itu saya belum pernah mencoba mendaftar beasiswa ke luar negeri. Bahkan, saya belum punya visa ketika itu. berbagai kekhawatiran dan pikiran negatif seperti takut dengan jumlah saingan yang banyak dan semuanya hebat Tapi entah ada dorongan darimana, saya memberanikan diri untuk mencoba dan berfikir positif. Seperti yang diriwayatkan dalam Hadits Qudsi : "Aku adalah apa yang hambaku sangkakan, dan Aku akan bersamanya selama ia mengingat-Ku" (Muttafaq'alaih)

Mulailah saya mengurus persyaratan dan dokumen-dokumen yang diperlukan. Waktu yang sempit dan jadwal kuliah yang padat menjadi tantangan tersendiri untuk melengkapi persayaratan tepat waktu. Saya pun rela bolak-balik Malang-Surabaya demi kelengkapan dokumen. Namun saya menjalani dengan senang hati dan nothing to lose. 

Seleksi pertama berhasil saya lewati dengan baik. Ketika melihat nama-nama yang lolos, saya sempat kecil hati. Bagaimana tidak, nama-nama tersebut sebagian besar dikenal sebagai aktivis kampus dengan IP yang hampir 4 dan kemampuan intelektualnya jauh di atas saya. Hmm.. lalu kemudian saya mencoba berfikir positif dan berusaha untuk membuat esai yang menarik. Mulai dari googling bagaimana cara membuat esai yang baik, sampai konsultasi ke orangtua serta kakak saya. Saya pun sempat merevisi beberapa kali setelah dikritik oleh Mami, Papi, dan Mas Kiki.

Sekali lagi, Allah meloloskan saya untuk lolos ke tahap terakhir yaitu wawancara. Nah di tahap ini, saya harus mampu meyakinkan para interviewer yang kritis dan berwawasan luas. Dalam hati saya tetap berfikir positif dengan tetap berharap kepada Allah SWT. Bahkan waktu itu saya sudah bisa membayangkan diri saya berjalan-jalan ke berbagai tempat eksotik di Eropa, hehe.

Tiba saat pengumuman yang dinanti-nanti, akhirnya saya lolos dan berhak pergi ke Praha selama sebulan. WAAAAAA... Alhamdulillah... I couldn't help myself from dancing and jumping around by the time I heard the news!! Tak lupa lalu saya bersujud syukur, berterima kasih kepada Sang Maha Pemberi, Allah SWT.

Harvard National MUN di Boston, USA
Awalnya saya mengetahui event bergengsi ini dari teman saya yang berangkat ke Harvard duluan. Setelah nanya-nanya, saya bertekad dalam hati : tahun depan harus aku nih yang gantian berangkat! Dan ketika pendaftaran event ini dibuka, dengan semangat 45 saya buru-buru cari info dan bikin esai (lagi) hehe. Entah kenapa, karena memang sudah direncakan dan ditunggu-tunggu, jadi saya merasa enteng aja mengikuti semua seleksinya. Nothing to lose, tapi optimis keterima dan berangkat. Alhamdulillah akhirnya kepilih! Allahu Akbar!

Untuk mempersiapkan keberangkatan saya dan tim ke Boston, bukan tanpa masalah. Persiapan kami selama hampir satu tahun sebagian besar dihabiskan dengan mencari sponsor dan bantuan dana. Saya yang sedang koas juga tidak bisa dengan mudah mengurus perijinan cuti terkait birokrasi kampus dan rumah sakit. Ditambah pula, ada pihak-pihak yang meremehkan keberangkatan kami. Kami sampai kenyang dengan penolakan dari sana-sini hehe

Sampai suatu saat, saya ingat ketika H-2 bulan keberangkatan dan saya belum bisa membeli tiket-akomodasi dan lain-lain karena dana yang ada belum bisa mencapai 50% dari anggaran kami. Orangtua saya saat itu juga keberatan karena waktunya bersamaan dengan persiapan pernikahan Mas Kiki dan persiapan haji Mami dan Papi yang notabene membutuhkan uang yang tidak sedikit pula. Selama kurang lebih sebulan saya memohon kepada Allah dan pasrah. Saya pun sudah mau mundur dari tim karena kondisi keuangan dan perijinan yang sepertinya tidak memungkinkan. 

Saya pernah menyebut di dalam doa saya, "Ya Allah bantulah kami mendapat sponsor, minimal 10 juta Ya Allah..." 

Lalu pada suatu siang setelah secara resmi berbicara kepada seluruh anggota tim bahwa saya mengundurkan diri, saya mendapat telepon dari seseorang yang mewakili suatu perusahaan swasta di Malang. Bapak tersebut menyetujui proposal kami dan bersedia memberikan sponsor berupa uang cash. Coba tebak berapa jumlahnya? 10 JUTA! Ya, benar! 10 Juta! Subhanallah! Sungguh, Allah tidak pernah sekalipun melanggar janji-Nya.

"Sebab sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan. Sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan" (Al Insyirah:5-6)

Kalau kita mau mengingat-ingat kembali, begitu banyak nikmat dan rahmat Allah yang patut kita syukuri. Begitu besar pula kekuasaanNya yang seringkali terjadi tanpa kita sangka-sangka. Maha Benar Allah dengan segala firman Nya. Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri 1436 H dari saya! Minal Aidzin wal Faidzin, mohon maaf lahir batin! :)


Rabu, 15 April 2015

Words of Mine After HNMUN



Hello everyone! Actually I intended to write about my first experience in HNMUN 2015 couples months ago in Boston, USA. But I haven't had much time yet due to the upcoming exams. I'm going to post few photos instead. 

I have to say, joining HNMUN was the BEST DECISION I've ever made in my entire life. Though I admit there was soooo much things I had to gave in. Yet I told you, I didn't regret a single thing of it. Otherwise, I am thrilled to do it again. Yeah, I wish I could. 

Along with this post, I would say thank you to everyone who has supported us from the beginning... My mom and my dad, especially, who have encouraged me to take chances, be brave, and to cross any boundaries in order to reach my dreams. They always lift me up whenever I doubt myself and about to give up. Thank you to let me do some (or a lot, i guess) things beyond your expectation.I LOVE YOU MOMMY POPPY!! My elder brother, Mas Kiki, who always be so kind to let me use his credit card for buying things and booked hotels or bus tickets.I felt so sorry at first but I couldn't resist it ;p My sister-in-law, Kak Sari;my younger brother, Fafa; and you,yeah all of you who has supported me in any possible ways even if it was just like put a 'love'in my Path's posts. THANK YOU. YOU RAWKK!!

My lovely team in a frame

We were posing after the closing of HNMUN

First time we stepped in Boston and it was a day after terrible blizzard.

Times Square!!!! YEAAAAAHHHH!!!!



In the end, I would like to invite all of you to have such an amazing journey all the way to USA to attend the biggest MUN held by Harvard University Students - HNMUN. Just click www.brawijayaforhnmun.com and fullfill the inquiries.



  • As the wise men said, in the end you would only regret things you didn't do. So don'tlet HNMUN be one of them.GOOD LUCK!!!


Sabtu, 15 November 2014

Lessons.

Have you ever seen a romantic soap opera on TV and feel sick about the plot? Have you ever seen girls crying after breaking up with her lover in the public places? Have you ever seen a couple who are having a terrible quarrel and yelling at each other in the public places? 

If one of those answers is yes, you might think that love can be so incredibly wrong and what might be left are the PAIN and HATRED

So, what are we gonna do? We can't just easily walk out or force ourselves to not being in love with someone. It's just clearly impossible, isn't it? What I suggest you to do, my dear readers, is do learn from the experience. Take lessons from every terrible things that bang you in the past.

This time, you can learn from my experience. My personal experience about LOVE which I should say the most frustrating thing ever in this decade of my life. It's like the thing you wanna tell to your children later, so that they will be more prepared in the event that they're in the same position (which I really don't hope so)

So fellass.. Let's begin our lesson. (I'd say these things to my beautiful children if I have later)

"Kid, if someone starts to pay more attention to you or starts flirting with you meanwhile he's still in relationship with someone else, back off and say NO from the beginning. Because he will do it again to you, sooner or later."

"Kid, if you are in the middle of your friend's relationship, just stay quite and do not act or talk to them unless they've finished their problems. Otherwise, you might add another problem"

"Kid, if you get blamed by many people for something you don't do, just be nice to them and let the time reveals all the truth. Because if you're busy listening and clarifying things here and there, it's totally in vain"

"Kid, if someone say bad things to you, don't do the same thing. Because they won't stop"




"Kid, if guys come to you and say they love you,don't be too happy and accept them easily. Take time. Take time as long as you need to convince yourself whether he's the right one. Because a guy who's in love and seems like he wants you very bad,will say enormous sweet things to you. Unfortunately, most of them are just garbage. They just want to get you in their hand first, and they will forget everything they say to you"

"Kid, if you feel like people abandon you, and you feel alone, it's the sign that Allah misses you. He just want to talk to you, so go talk to Him"

"Kid, don't judge people easily based on other's people story. Ask directly to them. Because you might be in their position someday, and it feels HOLY terrible"

End of the lessons.



As Ted said in How I met Your Mother : 

"A word of advice: play along. The more you fight it, the worse it’s gonna get. It’s like when your car slides on ice, you stir into the skid"

"There are a lot of little reasons why the big things in our lives happen"

Sabtu, 10 Mei 2014

The Eleventh of May

Hello Sunday ! 

Just wanna tell you, I currently love a song from Justin Timberlake - Not a Bad Thing. Justin's voice is just so soothing. The lyric is also majestic! The video clips is also hyper romantic! Awwww... 
So I would present this song and my handcraft below to complete our Eleventh of May :)

Thank you for this three. Sorry for this is the only thing I could do. Hope to see you soon is always be my prayer in the morning while we are busy chasing our dreams. Good luck for us!! :))


" So don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me
Cause you might fuck around and find your dreams come true with me
Spend all your time and your money just to find out that my love was free
So don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
It's not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me

Now how about I be the last voice you hear tonight?
And every other night for the rest of the nights that there are
And every morning I just wanna see you staring back at me
'Cause I know that's a good place to start "










Sabtu, 16 Maret 2013

I Wanna Be..


Dear, you..

I wanna be.. the first person that pops in your mind when you open your sleepy eyes every morning.

I wanna be.. the first person you remember to call every morning after you open your eyes.

I wanna be.. the person whom you say ‘I MISS YOU’ and ‘I LOVE YOU’ in your call everyday and never get bored hearing of it.

I wanna be.. the person you think to motivate you before you start your days.

I wanna be.. the person you wanna hug when you are stressed out by your overwhelming works.

I wanna be.. the person you wanna sing with in your break time during your busy tasks.

I wanna be.. the person whose tweet is awaited by you everytime you scroll your Twitter timeline.

I wanna be.. the person who you wanna always send text to and the reason why you are smiling whenever you see my name pops out on your phone’s screen.

I wanna be.. the person who you worry about in a heavy windy rain.

I wanna be.. the person who you want to share your day with after all your tiring days with so many fluttered obstacles.

I wanna be.. the person who you want to say ‘Good night’ to and kiss me in the forehead, gently.

I wanna be.. your partner in crime, your childhood bestfriend, your online games playmate, your favorite TV Idol, and your everlasting good looking Disney princess.

I wanna be.. all I wanna be.. is yours.

Senin, 13 Agustus 2012

An Interview that Brought Me to Europe

I could feel my own heartbeats right after I opened my eyes that morning. I had to face this day, this big day. I said to myself. An interview regarding the selection of scholarship given by HPEQ DIKTI in order to encouraging medical education quality through student exchange program which is held by IFMSA. There were many exchange program destination countries offered, and I'd made my choice. It was Czech Republic. Why? Simple, because it's located in Europe. The dreamland. My dreamland..

Minggu, 12 Agustus 2012

Prague, I'm so fucked up missing you..


I fell in love with Prague.
I stepped on it as a foreigner but it welcomed me nicely.
My first impression of its people wasn't good.
I was grim and gloomy
got pissed off easily
But time goes by..
And opened my eyes
new friends made
totally different  cultures
large amount of time spent together
questions, laugh, glance, thoughts,
diversity, tolerance,
friendship and love.

Selasa, 03 Januari 2012

Happy New Year, folks !

whoa ! hello again !
this is officially my first post in this watery-dragon year, 2012. Happy New Year, once again !

so, how did you guys spend the new year eve yesterday ? going to one of the shopping centre in the city ? have a BBQ party in friend's house ? or just stuck in your home just like me ?
yeah, this New Year Eve I spent at home, watching tv, and doing some chit chat. Seems like it was really bad, and it was. HA HA
but, nevermind.

New Year is supposed to be filled with new hopes, new spirit, and everything's new, that's bullshit. Those are the bullshit made by hopeless people. Seems like all the time you got before it, you didn't have that new spirits etc. Come on dude, we are already have new spirits, new hopes and new resolution, and it is happened EVERYDAY. You don't have to wait the New Year Eve to wish something to God, do you ?

One a-must-thing in New Year Eve is fireworks. Tons of fireworks in all over the world were bombed to the sky. Millions of people were willing to wait for hours just to see the fireworks. And in the end, it would be the most beautiful 10-minute-sky for a whole year. I myself, am also into it. I mean, who's not ? Fireworks do have some magical persuasive capability to make the lips stretched into a smile :)
And the fireworks shows in many countries are so damn amazing! tho i watched on tv and I'm totally flabbergasted by it. Whoaaaaa... Wish I can have that kind of New Year Eve party there :)

Yet, this January is just the beginning, friends. Be aware ana be prepared ! We're gonna face this unpredictable journey soon ! yeah ! \m/

Selasa, 16 Agustus 2011

You've Got A Friend

When you're down and troubled
And you need a helping hand
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You've got a friend

If the sky above you
Should turn dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud, yeah
Soon I'll be knocking upon your door

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running, oh yes I will
To see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh yeah, but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yes I will.

You've got a friend
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again (oh baby don't you know)
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
Lord, I'll be there yes I will.
You've got a friend

Oh, you've got a friend.
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend.
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend.
You've got a friend.




This song is dedicated to my bestfriend, Yuliza Rizka Andini, whose lovely dad had just passed away yesterday. Deep condolence for you and your family, dear. May your dad rest in peace and is in the most beautiful place beside our ALLAH. 


You always have me, have us, your friends. And we always have ALLAH, The Greatest Power of All, to hang on whenever we need. 


Though this tears felt so cold, we all hope to see your brightest adorable smile :)


                                    
                                    We do love you, sweetheart :)